I will share my own experience with vertigo. And to be honest, this morning when I woke up, I experience once again the awful feeling of vertigo.
My surroundings are spinning, feels like I am falling even if I am still in my bed, and having the urge to vomit even if I am not.
I‘VE BEEN HERE BEFORE, AND IT WAS AN UNACCEPTABLE FEELING
I will share my vertigo experience with you and how I overcome it. Well, of course, with the help of doctors and medications. But, mostly myself. My determination.
I got my vertigo when I was still active in running. I used to participate to different fun runs, five kilometer run, ten kilometer run, and even a volunteer run or walk for a cause.
But one day, after my ten kilometer run, I got dizzy, my visions started to dim out, I feel like I am about to vomit too. Then I asked myself, maybe I pushed myself too hard that it exceeded to my limits? I was confused because I am not aware that vertigo exists.
I let it pass by for a couple of weeks to see if there’s any changes and hoping that I will be fine. But, no luck at all, I still feel dizzy, even when I will just going to take a bath or do my own thing in the bathroom. I was afraid and my anxiety was kicking in because I do not know what’s happening anymore, and I do not want to cause a scene for blacking out.
Dizziness in vertigo is way different from the dizziness that we usually encounter. It is like you are really going to fall and feel nauseus. It is like you cannot breathe because you are also panicking at the same time and it is not just sudden. It stays for awhile.
Never ever say that people who have vertigo is just acting up and it is nothing serious. Because you won’t understand unless you experience it yourself.
It was a tough call.
It made me hate living.
I am not going out anymore. I do not mingle with my friends anymore. Even whenever my family invites me to go anywhere, I refuse. Why? Because I am afraid and my anxiety is getting the best of me.
But one day, I asked myself, will I let vertigo win? Will I let it hold me back from the things I should do and places I should go to? You might know the answer by now, and of course it was a NO.
I started to seek answers and help from doctors, I had four doctors who checked on me and know what is really the root of it.
But I did not quit or get tired of helping myself to get better and be like me again.
Of course medications worked. For at least 6 months of my struggle. But as time goes by, my body got immuned with the medications that was given to me and it doesn’t help me anymore. Yet, they gave me another type of medicines.
Then, a new question pop right at me. Will this medicines can really help me? Or taking it everyday, constantly, without a skip, is good for my body? No.
So, I decided to try myself, to test myself, I started by avoiding the foods that might trigger my vertigo, I started walking again but in moderation, and I started to workout and train my balance on my own.
Because hey, going to the doctor and taking madications is no joke. With all the expenses that you have to shoulder and pay for.
FINALLY, I STARTED TO LIVE AGAIN…
Step by step. Little by little. Slowly but surely I will get there. I fight to get my life back again and started living.
Amd guess what? I am living again. I started to go to places I have never been before and meet new people.
I did not say that I beat vertigo, I did not say that I do not have vertigo anymore. I do. I still have. It is still with me up to now. I am still experiencing it. But you know what’s the difference from before to the present?
I am not letting it hold me back anymore. Mind over matter as they say.
Here’s a piece of advice from someone like me who have vertigo for more than four years now. Do not let it win, do not let it become a hindrance for your dreams, your goals, I know it is hard. Feeling dizzy and out of balance the whole time, or most of the time.
But you can do it too.
You can still go on with your life even if you have vertigo.
Remember, nothing can stop you but yourself. And do not let yourself stop you. We all have our own strength and purpose in this lifetime, maybe we got this illness because it is part of our life tests and let us claim that it is also because God knows that we can handle and fight it.
You are stronger than you think. Do not lose hope. Keep climbing! Keep soaring! Aim high!